the truth of the world~

dont know wat happen to me this few days..
suddenly think of many future life..

i watched tv 2day..
an activity i almost forgot..
then....my sick started..
shit..wat a bad sick is this..
psycho thinking maybe..

i saw the drama...
her husband had a relation with another girl..
somemore got pregnant..omg..
the girl forgive him..
why??
should she do so??
a person she loved..
a person she got hurt from..
is it worth?

wat wil be if is me??
i think again...

i went ktv with fren..
saw the mv..
gosh~ seeing your bf with another girl..
how damn close they are..
the girl run away, the guy chase up..
so??
first, think -ve, no forgiveness..
got once means got twice..
second, think +ve, he leave the girl in the room, and chase for u..
he stil care for u..
at last he stil back to u..
he cried for u..
he beg u..
means??
how bad your man be at outside, he will back home too..
is it??
which one u choose?

i asked them..
my fren choose the first..
no way to forgive..
and they always say i'm so emo so optismist..
but i chose second actually..they dont know..

actually i realised many meaning this few days..
suddenly i think that is true that everythings had the other way..
jz see how u think it..
so how my thinking??

i wonder why there is so many choice of thinking too..
a guy who love u..
who confess to u...
how to prove the truthly love u??
if u realised his past,
and know how faithful he is..
so wat?
u can think that he is really faith..
a good guy..
can consider..
second, he is jz showing off..
is jz one of his technique ok...
so he can get to u easier and no need any approvement..

oh god~wat u wan me think of?

first and second..
clever or stupid..
smart or dan cun..
mature or childish..
which one??

why am i thinking such stupid things?
why am i plan so much silly things?
is it it is near to the end of world?
is it this shows the sign to death?
is it i had been getting old?
is it i'm abnormal?
is it i'm overthinking again?
i need a person to speak to..
but duno who should i..
who wil not scolding me??

sometimes i jz wan to be simple..do wat i wan..not to think..not to decide..regret on fast decide..isn't that easy?