FlashBack#

watching back all the history is not a good thing, always...
is true, with the accompanions of sweet memories ;
is true, with the smile that hang on my face when scrolling down each :)
but it had made me re-call all the moment with questions.....

how 2person be such close get that loose right now?
even it is jz few months ago, friend can be a stranger..
where did the energy came from?
did the 2person forgot the moment then went closer?
well, it is 2years past...so??
the feeling of past also lost together with it?
is that true?
i wish to ask, do you remember? Honestly, do you still feel that feeling?
i re-called bcoz i missed.. i re-called bcoz i appreciated...
no matter on that moment or the days after it...

i wonder....
is the time brought us far from each ;
or the heart took us away...

i question...
is the sign of recall means regret ;
or the feeling means care...

i thought...
we will able to be back as initial, but never..

why is there happened to be a seperation...
the flow was so uncertain...
from a stranger, we met...
from a schoolmate, we knew..
from a classmate, we talked..
from a conversation, we understood...
from a friendship, we hold...
from a chat, we tighten..
but...all the process had been ignored....
from a word, we stopped..
from a person, we cooled..
from a conversation, we ended..
from a rumour, we gone.........
and i thought we will never be any except back to the first....
from a fate, we got...
from an end, we met....
from a smile, we smile...
from a hi, i melted...
from a talk, i wish u did feel the same....i wish u rmbr the moment the message the words the feeling.....

#jimui#i miss our friendship#honestly#

想念你

每一天我把它戴上，每一天我把它系上，可是我从来没有如此的怀念。。

今天望着它我想起了你。。想起了我们的回忆。。想起了当初你送上我的时刻。。

当时你想的是什么？当时你要的是什么？当时我逃避的是什么？当时你掉下的泪水是为了什么？

我从没想过我会如此挂念你。。

在你离开的时候，我彷徨。。

在你别恋的时候，我放弃。。

可是我没想过我会再次想念你。。

那股深深的感觉，怎么了。。我怎么了。。

脑里闪过首首歌曲，“看着我们的照片想念若隐若现...”“她进悄悄的来过...”“我飞行但你坠落之际...对不起我却没抓紧你...”

我们的回忆，我们的过去，什么都无法取代。。

来到沙巴的这段日子，认识了很多的新朋友。。

从简单的自我介绍到深入的了解对方，同样的一个问题我一直问自己，你是否是我曾经的唯一。。

回想当时，如果我放下执著，我们现在会在一起吗？

如果我勇敢面对，你会与我一同飞行吗？

如果我们还是朋友，我们还会熬夜聊天吗？

为什么对你有想念？

为什么对我那么好？

为什么不握紧我们的关系？

当初为了什么离开，当初为了什么不在一起，当初为了什么告诉自己你爱上她，当初为了什么再找回我。。

为什么？为什么我不信任离开过我的你？我应该庆幸吗？怎么我想念？