life^^

i tot i wont be blogging again..
but finally i cant and i continue my blog..
jz bcoz of such busy life..
form6 life is pretty different..
and sometimes i love it =)
maybe my results was not that good as last..
maybe i would sad for it..
but i know there are somethings else much more valueable to be rmbr..
that is those happy moment i had..
those wonderful classmate i had..
those best teachers i met..
those memories........never forget about it..

life is short..jz like the candle we studied about...
once the candle is finished..there are no more fire to be seen..
why dont we enjoy the moment candle are lightnening??
it's nice.. it's great..
but it seems to be dimmed.....
b4 the end....it lights slowly...
no..why dont we light up even brighter b4 the end???
it may bring happiness to ppl..
but....
if suddenly u died off..ops! darken suddenly..........
all the ppl around wil felt very surprise, very sad, very down, very very disappoint......
this is wat life meant....
in my mind, i always think that, if u dim b4 end, ppl wil try to die off you and kill you...
but how should we choose???
life always full of roads and way...
and this recalled me the poem, the road not taken.....
i always missed the road...
though i never realised i should appreciate the road i'm walking now..
but it's glad i know i did not...so i'll make myself to the right way right now^^
you too ^^

mentos ^^

during tuition~~~
i'm not paying attention....
dont scold me first lorrr...
i means not pay attention a few second...
2 and a half hour....ate 1 strip of mentos...by 3 of us^^
and i'm dreaming.....
bcoz i'm thinking.....
i wish to write a few words inside the mentos paper xD
at last.......i wrote only one word =)
hmmm...
actually...i jz wish to write : "i hope you're stil my ji mui..."

sad + angry

sad day sad day...
jz bcoz of wat?? ishh!!!!
wat happened to me?
really bcoz wat i heard??
really bcoz wat she told??
my godness....
am i controlling my emotional until i reached my blog???
did i done well???
i'm sad throughout the day u know..
hey dude, are u ok??
talking ppl beside the ppl...
u really tot the ppl wont hear about that??
i did ok...!!
ok la..dont scold me perasan la..
but then....dont point me so obviously k??
can u please dont??

wats wrong with me??
am i wrong since the beginning??
u may think it is..but then not right??
maybe for u really is....
but why u told her so??
wat means by cant be fren??
so u means that is my problem so that our status be so??
so u means that is i dont wan to be fren?
is it??
speak it out loud!!!!
i wan to know the truth!!!!
i'm fine to date out and settle this misunderstood..
i'm sure that there is the misstood..
haiz..
i'm sad u know...u dont know...
u're the first to say that have a temporary "coolation"..
aren't you??
if u're now to reply "no" , ok, fine..fine!!!!
i bet all the evidence i got it in my dear blog..
please refer back ok....

i'm fine since the first k..
i tot nothing wil happen..
u're the one who choose to do so..jz to quit the "jack daniel"..

i agree with u but u treat me like a FOOL!!!

valentine~

special valentine's day~
hmmm..i tld myself to write something here..haha..
and today is the 2nd year i celebrate valentine..
jz to write some feeling here..
and my feeling is just like.......normal..
i know i wont get anything i wont wait for anyone..
and today was too tired for me..
so, i had slept in my valentine's day xD
then i received a call..
bcoz miss poon going to her and her sister valentine....
so i need to fetch the 2naughty back home alone~
omg!! 2monkeys...over my valentine with 2noisy fellow~
actually i think not everyone had celebrate right?
i'm sure not the only one.. =)
but this year my sister had her target to celebrate..
even she invite me to be along..but i sure very seng mok lor..haha..
maybe bcoz got 20% i stil believe to receive call at the night..
haha..always give myself a wish and i knw it wont come true..nvm..
bcoz when i wish it i feel happy..so...the happy 1second also not bad ma ^^
valentine recall me last few years...wat present i had received??
i really appreciate..until now..even you are her now =)
happy valentine to all of you who really care for me..
i cant accompany you all to continue for the rest of life..
but i stil wish all of you can happy forever in every valentine..
i rmbr got a ppl promise me to over every valentine with me..
anyhow, i does not believe any promise anymore..
1valentine 2valentine even how many, i'll still appreciate but not ask for more =)

great talk~

why i seems having a lot of story a lot of diary??
haha..
and i'm stil happy to have a fren to share =)
at first is u..is happy u know..
i tot i found the one who same with me..
i tot i found the one to hear my sadness..
i tot i found the one who can speak out his sad when he need..
i tot i'm the one can share all the truth feeling..
but then is more than that..
and i had control at first..
but he continue the wrong feeling, maybe..
i never confirm his feeling..
i pretent i dunno jz to keep the relation..
but it had also end up with nothing..
and the time had diluted everythings..
if u really life better that that, happy to hear that..keep it up =)

only 2months i knew him better..
and i had a great talk actually..
everytime when i'm really down...
but then is stil the same feeling for human being..
when a person can trust on you..
when a person think of u when sad..
when a person put u as the first to call when weak..
you'll felt the warm..
(not bcoz the person sad and u happy with that la..for sure xD)
but that day when i received the call..
"do u free to talk? i had something to share..."
even how busy am i, is still willing to spend a little more..
the happy moment is the ending is always happy..
is happy to change the sadness to happiness..
as i know i'm the sad one always..
the sad one can make another sad one to be happy, wow!
dont praise i know..haha..
anyhow, i not dare to guarantee anything anymore..
how i know is the same ending lateR?
how i know i never have the forever chance to have a great talk partner?
so...i jz appreciatee the moment i having =)

after 7months~

is a weird case u know...
haiz...
wat do u want from me???
is really a question i wish to ask u long time ago..
but then the feeling is like..omg...
why always when there is a chance to meet up with u,
"bibir membeku lidah terkelu" ???
i cant even speak out and my weakness had come up too..
all of my mind had controlled by u..and i have ntg to say..
until u left..and all the wuestion began again...
wat the shXX!
so wat i do to??haiz..
u know wat..is really complicated..
already more than half year..
and it's even longer than my first love experience..
but then the situation is different i know..
actually who am i for u??
i know i had made it complicated..but u add on pula...
everytime i wish to clear it, u'll escape from that..
everytime i tot is the end, u'll continue the story..
everytime i let it be, u'll make it weird...
should i send u a wishes?
no i think..
should i inform u??
no i think..
should i care ur respond?
no i think...
but i did all of the NO..

if this is wat u'll do to me..
even when i'm really ur certified girl..
sorry to say that, i wont allow u to walk in my life..
even i had touched ; even i had cried ; even i had liked..

refresh back wa u had done to me..
is really more and touched..
but is that showing ur love to me?
ya, beginning ya..
now? i dunno..can u tell me??

wat is your thinking when we miscontact for a month?
wat is your feeling when received my msg?
wat is your feeling when i greet u?
wat is your feeling when decide to date me?
wat is your feeling when i attend ur date after miscontact?
wat is your feeling when u hold my hand?
wat is your feeling when u hug me tight??

you know wat you doing? aren't you??

the conclusion i got is,
when u never see me,
u'll never rmbr who am i..

longest winter~

yeah yeah~
it seems the longest winter wothout u~~
i didn't know where to turn to~~
haha!!
its really a long time i never update my blog..
anyhow, for someone is really jz short moment..
but then for me, these short long period had reall brought lots of memories..
hmmm..
i think i'm really getting older than others..
dunno why always my thinking is surrounded around the word "is ok "nvm" "let it be"
am i crazy?
but i think is fine..
wat can i say about??
first is you...ya no doubt..
wat can i say is, time can relief..ya is true..
and it can also dilute the relation the friendship..
i'm thinking that there was misunderstood btwn us..dunno wil u think of that..
anyhow, i know u life better and me too right?
wish u happy rabbit year ya^^ a new year can really make a new start =)