Ji mui mun....

I'm glad to have one group of my great and best ji mui....
No matter wat happened before between us, we stay close to each..
I had never regret...
Maybe between us there are stil belongs to someone else..
But we never care..
At last once we gather, we enjoyed, we shared...
That's wat I like to have it...
Ji mui mun...
U all are really the best of the best,.
I can never have it again..

When showing among ji mui...
We speak out wat we think..
No doubt..
We show wat we want...
No po po ma ma..
We never act..never pretend..
We say the truth..
We present every single part of us...
Even when we are in anger..
We knew...
When we are in trouble..
We solved....together...
This is wat called ji mui...

When u cry, not only the shoulder to lend..
But the scolding and the advise...
They knew too much..and they know it's not worth to put in tears...
When u angry, wit the Missy anger,,,
They say in another way,,
They say u pattern..
They shoot u directly...
Bcos they know, this is wat our relation build...
This is the truth care from ji mui....
Not that kind holding ur hand say u are always right..
Not that kind push u until the top of roof say u are so pro...
Not that kind comes to u when they need..
Not that kind run off when u need them back....
Seriously, not that kind ask u to borrow money....
Luckily I'm not in that status yet, we are stil between teenage and adult...
Enjoy life! Our wonderful secondary higher secondary teenage dream among my ji mui mun!!!

Puchong life

No ones know I guess..
The major reason causing me to stay in puchong..
Do u miss ur family?
Do u live independently?
Do u able to get used to it?
Do u feel it's far?
Do u stil keep in touch wit us?

My dear...
I did.. I can.. Trust me..
So many days I stayed in puchong, I had get used to it..
Dont u guys know?
These are the days I wait for 19years..
Maybe not that long, but at least ten...

And now the situation asking me to back my "hometown" for 4days..
Honestly, it's suffering..
I know if my family saw this they wil hurted..
But, I really feel so reluctant to return there and watch they history..
8years before..I had live so tough..
U won't know, or maybe u did..
And it began, on the day i left my last paper...
U all never care..no, u did..
I know it's hard to controlled and u guys used me as a bridge to start the fight..
Im hurt..
So many years...my character was silent,,,
No, I'm grown..not for this year..
I voiced out, and I hope she could understand..
So long, i never wan any give back from her, no..
The only I hate is only you, madam kang!!
Stop destroying.. We are all adult right now....

Im really getting my life in puchong..
Yup, if i have my own transport wil be better..
But I dont feel any lonely here..
Seriously, obviously, really...
I'm happy here =)

Ex..

For those we loved before....
I had truthly love u..seriously..
For my first love..
I never known until now, did u love me before..
I hope u did..
But we break off too sudden,.
Without knowing ur reason..
Wat happened between us?
Tell me the truth..
Wat makes u made this decision?
I'm stil keeping the present that I failed to present u..
Wonder when can I pass it to u..
Have the chance or no?
One day I met u....
U got a cigarette on ur mouth,,
Are u too stressful in ur current life?
Hope you're fine...

For you, kame..
I know our relation doesn't goes long..
Since we had a far distance love..
I know i had a very bad attitude..
I had thought too much..
I knew..really..
But I never know that I had never think wrong..
Wat I predicted had came true...
Friend, not I think too much this time..really..
It's happening...can u guys believe?
He betrayed me..he did..
But why? He stil protecther?
He said she was not the third person..
But he wanted me to be the third person..
Wat the......hell!!!
But I forgive u..because I did know ur pain as wat u told me..
That day I met u..
U are wit ur girl..
The feeling was...why don't u tel me earlier...
I dunno who's to face it u know....
Thats it... I won't meet u again...
Until I had really no feeling about it.....

One night..I care...

It was yesterday night...
When I accidentally scroll down my new feeds..
I saw something...
Actually It did not attract me teo click it..but the feeling...
Maybe I'm bored on that moment??
I saw somthing..........
I saw the blog of him, the mimosa pudica...
I saw in one of the articles....
He wrote that he regrets on a girl for the past 4years..
I'm wonder..who was she?
Did he meant me? But I'm nit the 4 but past 5years...
Wait...
Why am I care whether the person is me or the girl that causes our relation end?
I'm too young on that moment...
But once I saw things related to him, I'll stil had the feeling...
Jz like that day we met in the stall...
I pretend mtg, but lastly I felt when he SMS me..
And the other day...
I met him wit my friend, we sat down and chat..
I jz silent...
I dunno did this meant I angry,.
He wrote the girl did...
I didn't...
I think I'm not...
But then why am i care?

Miss you

I'm clear with wat happened to me these few days..
Seriously, I'm fall to it.. Once i realized I can't run out of my vision..
It's been quite a long time..we had a start..unpredictable chatting..
But I was thinking that is it my own problem? Am I think too much?
I worry i did.. Bcos I had felt..
When I read back all the msg, I didnt delete it..I saved it.. And once I read it, I smile..
Wat am I doing? Oh god.. Pull me out....
I know I'm not good enuf to be that character, I'm not suit..so I chose to silent..
But this few days...after I heard the news..I realized we had lost contact..
Are u stil there?
Can I have ur care again?
Where r u?
Why after u confirm the truth to me, u lost?
Or I'm only the one who thought too much again?
Or from the beginning, I'm already wrong, u had never look at me, even once......
Really hope it's not only my dream..
Hope u can feel it.. Seriously......