wat can i do?

i dont wan u all misunderstood..
thats why i'm good with everyone..
but i'm wrong..
bcoz if like this, other ppl tot i'm too open for that..
shit~
teach me how la..
if u were me..
wat wil u do?
maybe u wil direct be cruel...
maybe u wil accept it..
but....
both i wont..
thats why there is no ppl to blame but myself..

my blog~

actually this blog i created not wish anyone to read it or comment it..
but i jz wish to have a space in expressing my feeling..
or my thinking..
i really need a space..
when i'm tired..
when i'm confuse..

i didn't wish anyone to comment or "an wei"..
but i wish everyone to understand my situation..

prostitute..

sometimes i asking myself..
y i jz like a prostitute..
sorry, i know it sounds rude..
wat to do..
sometimes being good, i felt so..
maybe not that serious..
but a partner "for all"..
it sounds worst again..
or should i say cheap?
god..
wat am i talking about..
maybe i sholudn't post this..
but its wat i feel..

sigh~

wat day is today.. i dont think i done the wrong things..
but i knw i did wrongly since the first day..
i din blame anyone but myself..
wat can i do actually?
is it the way i should do?

why i tell u the truth..bcoz i duno wats the reason to lie..
why i act ntg..bcoz its the truth..

am i a bad girl?
wat do u all think of me actually?
is my fault to blame..
why so?

i'm blur n confuse..
jz bcoz i dun wish to hurt anybody..
am i wrong? i really wish to hear the answer of "no"..

ji mui~
thanks for finally understand my feeling and my tiredness..

direct staright~

wat i think i say it out..
wat i wonder i ask immediately..
wat i dont like i show my reluctant..
wat i angry i scold by now..

but is this direct straight pattern suit for everyone?
i duno.. but i did it to someone i know..
should i?
i duno.. i jz dont like the way to express my feeling in other ways..
i dont wish to have any misunderstood situation..
i jz like to let u all know the truth..

i knw its really hurt..
but i wanted to let u knw the truth..
i dont wan to keep it and show another look of mine..
but i knw u cant accept it..
even myself also think that is cruel..

or else, wat can i do to let u know the truth??

water day~

gosh~
wat day is 2day?
are u countdown-ing?
but i'm all the way related myself with water..
H2O~
early in the morning..i woke up b4 my alarm ring..
after cleaning up myself from bathroom...its rang~
on the way i switch it off.. i slipped~ luckily i managed to balance myself..
but i knocked my toes~ is ok..normal..

in the evening.. i went for the year end gathering..
again.. i slipped~ with the water which poured on the floor..
this time, i couldn't manage to balance n i fell..
however, i manage to avoid the serious fall..
but i knocked my waist~ is ok..my slipper problem..

in the same gathering.. i tidying the left out foods..
suddenly..the cup of carbonated drinks..
pour or more likely to say as splash! on my leg..
yes..is my whole leg.. wat a clean bathing with my leg~~~~
sticky feeling~unlucky feeling~wat to do respond..~

actually..

suddenly~everyone asking me about that..
i duno wat to answer actually.
sunddenly~everyone misunderstood about that..
i duno wat to explain actually..

actually~i dont wish anyone to misunderstood..
thats why i wish to treat fair to all..
actually~sometimes i did misunderstood myself too..
thats why i wish someone to show me my way..
actually~i really wish to know more..
thats why i'm kept on asking n surveying..

actually when the second u told me that u felt my caring on him..
i'm asking myself.. is it? no..
but i wonder..if i didn't, why wil u say so?
i'm asking myself.. wat did i did??

actually i care for everyone who care for me..
actually i protecting everyone who care for me..
actually i doesn't mean to hurt everyone who care for me..
actually i wish to smile happily with everyone who care for me..
actually i wish to enjoy every second with everyone who care for me..
actually i did felt the happy with everyone who care for me..
actually, everyone who care for me, u all helped me to release my stress..
thanks a lot..