guilty..

god~i did a stupid thing i think..
my god~ i duno wat happen to myself..
i cant meet my fren now~no choice..have to meet my dear blog to express~~

blog arr....blog......
do u know....
the first time..i attend to the wedding ceremony..
i planned the game..
i helped the bride..
i'm enjoying~
and i got a conclusion...
the wedding is not systematic at all..=="'
not well-planned at all..
is not the most memorable at all..
and......my wedding next time WONT be like that~

did you know my pretty bride??
bcoz of your buffet dinner at night..
i rejected 2persons date..haha..
actually i'm quite happy~XD
i duno y suddenly both of them dated me..
anyhow....
after the dinner~~~~
then~~~~
something happenned~~~~
ermmmm...
blog ar...
actually for me i think it's normal la..
jz...duno how to say..
i felt a little bit guilty~
i drove myself to his house and had a supper...
is nothing right~~
but then i duno why we stay there until 3am++ (>.the first time i think..
long time gathering..
so long i din chat with him..
and i did..but i'm stil the same..hearing his talkative~
and i realised, they are the same~ not comparing but i realised it..
after that...as it's late...
he suggested to overnight at his house..
as i drove myself is dangerous to reach my home alone~
i know his mother is fine of that..
i know is ok..
but......my sickness started..
i almost din had my sleep the whole night..
early in the morning i return home IMMEDIATELY..
i duno y my heart feel to escape from his family..
i'm wondering the thinking of their mind~
and i'm panda now~

blog.....
if i'm a girl who in a relationship..
wat do u think the consequence is?
blog..
i jz knew that i'm not a good person..
at all....
i duno why as a girl i could like that..
i duno did i wrong..
but the guilty is occurred...
blog...
this met let me confirm that i'm clear with him..
the first time..
i success to survive =)
and......he stil the same..
i think guys always like that..
got the sickness...
i really wish to tell him, please recall your gf please..
she love you so much..and i'm not at all..
and you??who you love..please consider well b4 u hurted both of us...

guy...
i wont believe you anymore..
1st and 2nd..
i know it wil be the same..
i really wish to be lessbian~
sorry to say that...
i dont think i'm wrong..
but....
sometimes i'm close-minded..
i'm not secure at all..
i wonder who wil be my husband~

my shoes T.T

sad~

i failed to buy my shoes..

finally..

i admit that i really have a small size~

haiz...

the first time..

i even tried the children's shoes..

my god..

i really wish to have that type of shoes..

i never tried b4..

i really wish to T.T

why i failed to get it??

even i try my best not to care about the price..

also failed~~~

sad~~~~T.T

i wan to buy shoes~~~!!!

is my own problem~

abnormal problem~

haiz..sad..

the size of 35..cannot..

the size of 34..er....not bad..but cant walk properly..

the size of 33..omg..child size..too tight for me..

shit~

need something like 33.5??

positive?

fren~
u all always ask me think positive..
r u all sure that is works to let me be happy??
dont u all felt it's funny??
seeing something that sure it wont be ok...
but bluffing yourself to think positive..
dont lie yourself..
your heart even smarter than your own..
dont u know??
dont send your mind to believe something that have the answer on in..
1-1=0, is the fact..i'm wrong means wrong..
dont think positive that there are a line between..
1+1=2, and my answer is correct...
the printing is not that dark??
think positive?
maybe there are some better example in your mind..
and that is wat i means~

stupid ostrich =)

i wish to be ostrich~
i wish to hide in my head~
then i pretend u cant saw me..
as i cant saw u..
then i can live happily..
jz like that day..
escape from ur sigh..
jz bcoz i dunwan to attend..
then i run away..infront of u..
then i told myself u din saw it..
how funny am i?? or i shud say how stupid m i..
but i'm happy =) bcoz i cant see u u cant see me ^^
sometimes, stupid made one happy =)

hate myself~

most of the time..
i hate myself..

i duno why..

i hate myself duno how to reject..
duno how to handle..
duno how to control..
duno how to care..

i hate myself..
always done a thing which i know i'll regret later..
i hate myself..

always wondering..
pepsi or coke?
coffee or tea?
i used to think for a few minutes..
then i regret on my decision later..

always choosing..
rice or noodles?
full or alas perut?
anyhow, sure i made myself regret on both decision..
why am i doing so?
am i crazy?
i know i'm wrong but i stil continue..

always lead to accident...
left or right?
press on oil or brake?
stop or go?
it's yellow light blinking..
and i'm stil moving my leg to the both paddles..
haizzz..i wonder when i going to be hurted...

wat attitude i having??
i wish to have more choices..
but i blocked on those choices..
i'm doing somethings that shouldn't..
again and again....

fren~

fren~
sometimes, i really wish u could understand me more..
fren~
sometimes, i really wish to speak it off..
fren~
sometimes, i really wish to be alone..
fren~
sometimes, i really need your shoulder..
fren~
sometimes, i jz need your ear..
fren~
sometimes, i need your advice too..
fren~
wil u be here for me when i need you?
wil u stay with me whenever i wan?
wil u care for me with a truth heart?
wil u?

and...
who wil me my fren?

got it~

ok~since i get wat u mean..
sorry if u get hurted~
and....
i understood the horoscope story too..
it's really quite accurate and i knew it~
so...
maybe this is your way and that is my opinion..
sure there wil be some different...
time wil prove it.. =)