i hate the way!

i hate the way u make it like that..
i dun like u force me..
i dun like the way u treat me..
i dun like it!~!!!
u make me remember how i over my past year..
the way he treat me..
i hate it!
i dun like he force me too..
i could not accept it!!
no!! for b4 n now!!
no please..
even i'm 18 now..
i tried to open my mind...
but....
sorry..
it's too fast for me..
no thanks..
let me go..
i know this would happen..
i jz can say, luckily i stil haven approve...

single~

i know wat m i doing...
i accept wat m i doing..
doesn't mean that i accept the relation...
i'm single..
i'm clear of any relation..
i'm jz myself..
even how close am i with..
i'm stil single..

it's really my fault..
duno how to stop this terrible closeness i having..
again....unlucky and hurt and misunderstood..
life jz once...
i appreciate wat i had before..in order to convice myself.....

please..

if i'm the one who caused so many things many trouble many problems..
if i'm really so annoy to appear in your life...
if....if.... i hope really is jz if....
i know i shouldn't do something that over than my power...
i din...but the process jz like i had to..
jz like my fren told me, he is the unlucky one..sad..
i dunwan.. and now..not only is the unlucky one..
but seems like there are so many misunderstood...
shit..wat the f.. i dunwan it to be..
i knw maybe i really done something that let ppl tot something else..
but i jz can say....i clear wat m i doing....

the feeling coming back..

2day..duno wat happened to me..
in a blank house..
i suddenly felt so empty..
the feeling..the fear feeling..the horrible feeling..
i'm alone.. i'm worry.. i'm nothing but jz alone..
why i felt everythings gone from me...suddenly...
it seems back to the last few years..
i rmbr...
those days..i over everyday with such feeling...i'm alone without a perfect family..
i lost my family.. i face the empty..
until now...even it seems all are coming back..but...
it seems to be different..its actually stil the same..
sigh..
but i faced it..i affort to handle it..but now..
i got the feeling again..
i know somethings happened..

at that moment...i think of one of my fren..who can understand me i know...
but...he hurted me..depthly..
even sad even hurt..

hurted from words..

i'm hurt..i'm sad..
after seeing wat u had written..
i wonder y myself wil refer it also..
but..
i knw there is a problem..
it's too sudden..why..wat happened??
is this relation wil be break?
since when??
my heart sank..not bcoz of wat i lost..
but bcoz of the way u hurt me..
from wat i knw, maybe u hurted more by me..
but for me, i did nothing..

u means i lied..and u hate about lie..
i swear i never n ever..jz bcoz of wat u had told me..
maybe u really misunderstood..
maybe is just the situation is so complicated..
sorry..i know it doesn't work..but my heart really wish to apologise..
i can feel the pain of u, is true..but..i know u wont believe me anymore....

meaningful song~

谁愿意有勇气不顾一切付出真心？

害怕爱过以后还要失去。。

i love this song..but..i not dare to hear it again..
i not dare to share it again..
that is ours song..
it's a night mare..
i worry this..i dont like..
i dunwan to do the same things..
i dunwan the ending to be the same..
it's really very "xie"~

谎言

＂你老实说吧，我真的没事的。。＂这就是谎言。。