Friday, April 5, 2013

the only one i waited..

i have no idea what made me say the truth...
i have no idea why i cant say it out infront of u..
i have no idea why the stubborn occurred in my heart..
i have no idea why regrets always run through my mind....

the day that i confirmed my feeling on u..
the day that i told my close friend i miss u..
the day that i make it as habit to view ur stuffs...


but u end up no respond on any..
but u end up dont take it serious..
but u end up stop contacting me..
but u end up posted that u wanna be alone...

it hurts..even it is not mentioned..
it hurts..even i am stil not the one for u yet..

the feeling was just like i m got rejected...

how can u love a person over and over again, if that person constantly reject u?
---quote from fireproof

i wonder...
did he rejected me indirectly??
did he constantly did that??

i was thinking that i m the one who put too much effort on this relation...
no matter it started with friendship or a lover, it still....
i am telling myself not to be the one that take initiate..
until that day,
i heard a story from coursemate...
i understood the story line brought out from the movie..
i clearly know sometimes i should put down my stubborn..
but,
it is too late..
again..

dont wish to get any hurt,
dont wish to end a friendship like now,
dont have confidence on each other to build up this love...

i knew,
if a relation at the beginning does not have trust and confident,
this love will never have a good story..
so, i decided,
time will heals i know..

just wanna let u know,
u are the only one that i truthfully waited before..
all the while..all the moment..
with the heart that only give confident on u...
i m sorry unable to build up the confident between us,
i m sorry unable to say i meant it when i meant so,
i m sorry unable to ans ur ques when u asked me indirectly,
i m sorry unable to be your forever one <3>
 

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