again..

i try to clear my mind..
i try to get rid of..
i try to close my ears..
i try to pay my attention..
i try to understand well..
i try to slap myself..
i try to ignore..
i try to smile..
i try to force myself..
i try to forget..
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but i knw i failed..
i knw i care..
i knw i mind..
i knw i hate..
i knw i cant concentrate..
i knw i miss..
i knw i sad..
i knw i down..
i knw i angry..
i knw i cry..
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i wont forgive wat u had done..
i jz can act as normal, but mark in my heart..
i jz can cry in a corner, but smile on face..
i jz can sleep all the way n dont wish to be waked..