am i?

我以为是成全，你却说你的不愉快~
i'm wrong..sorry..

我是不是该安静的走开，还是该勇敢留下来。。
i'm suffer..can i go..?

其实我都知道~
i try to escape actually..

again..

i try to clear my mind..
i try to get rid of..
i try to close my ears..
i try to pay my attention..
i try to understand well..
i try to slap myself..
i try to ignore..
i try to smile..
i try to force myself..
i try to forget..
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but i knw i failed..
i knw i care..
i knw i mind..
i knw i hate..
i knw i cant concentrate..
i knw i miss..
i knw i sad..
i knw i down..
i knw i angry..
i knw i cry..
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i wont forgive wat u had done..
i jz can act as normal, but mark in my heart..
i jz can cry in a corner, but smile on face..
i jz can sleep all the way n dont wish to be waked..

sorry~

so sorry if i hurt u..
i knw it's really hurt..
i knw wat urs feeling..
i din ignored it b4..
i din try to ignore too..
everytimes i care it..
everytimes i be silent..
everytimes i stand beside..
but everytimes i notice it..
i doesn't mean wan let it be complicated..
but it comes to be..
i'm so sorry..
once a thing happened, i couldn't reject it..
i knw is my fault to blame..
so i apologise..
i knw is not used to it..
so i let it continue..
i knw it should be end..
so i try to convince myself..
i knw wat shud i do..
so i try to do it..
but i think i'm failing..
you.. i realised everythings..
and i get to know everythings too..
i feel it..
and i try my best too..
i jz can say..
sometimes action or reaction doesn't means anything..
sometimes i walk away doesn't means i dont care..
sometimes i ask about it doesn't means i accept it..
somethings that should not be please dont let it to be..
you.. it doesn't mean i dont know..
i knw everythings..
but i dunwan to say anything..
i'm not that clever to judge everythings..
but i wish something that will not happened..
i try my best to balance it..
and i hope i can did it..
i try my best to turn it in a round-about..
and i hope R2 wont be zero..
i saw the respond on everything..
i jz can say that i'm not that small as u tot..
somethings that should not start please dont let it to be..
you.. knowing that it's a dream..
even hope to continue it..
but sometimes we should face the music..
so i choose the be normal and simple..
wish u to be happy..

sad~

i'm sad.. very sad very down..
my mood swing seriously..
i duno wat shud i do..
i felt very pressure..
everythings that around me..
so messy.. or i let it be messy..
i really need some time..
need some time to release..
need some time to control myself..
need some time to rest..
but my time management going poor n poor..
wat happened on me..?
after going to the pre U life..
watever normal becomes abnormal..
i'm really mentally n physically tired..
for you, for him, for her and for them..
please.. i dont wish to see again n again..
please..dont ask me..
please..give me some chance to advice myself..
please..give me some time..
please..care for those ppl around u..
please..dont let me hurt u once..
please..dont ignored me..
please..dont overjudged me..
please..give me some way to go..
please..release me from stress..
please..tell me the truth..
please..dont affect me..
please..believe me..
please..dont force me..
please..understand my situation..
please..dont make me to choose..
please..dont blame me for everythings..
please..let me go..

i knw i'm wrong sometimes..
why dont u give me a chance..
i knw i'm bad sometimes..
why dont think wat the reason..
i knw i'm not good enuf..
why dont bring me to a good way..

i just wan to have a normal life..
i just wan to be simple..
i just wan to learn..
can u please dont be so materialistic..
can u please make it more simple..
can u please believe that simple way leads to a happy life...??