哭了

我哭了。。
因为他因为他。。
我很恨我自己。。
因为他因为他所做的一切。。

到底我在犹豫什么？
到底我有感动吗？
到底我有动心吗？
到底他恨我吗？？

sorry

你何时满足。。?
the lyrics here..express their feeling..
showing my badness..
i duno wat can i do to relief their pain..
should i leave?

赌

面对爱情，应该让路还是再赌？
i duno wat is my feeling now..
stop or continue..
i really dont care?

my past~

i found many things about my past..
duno y..i tot it was a long long past..
but actually jz 1 and a half year + only..
i stil rmbr the day u say u wan break wit me..
it's last year end of june..
it seems i used lot of my energy to delete my sadness..
and yes, i did overcome it.. =)
all the notes i wrote..
it really bring a lots of meaning..
i wonder how i write it out last time.. >.<
all my feeling..all y expression..
not emo..but wat my heart n mind means..
it's all true n touches my heart..
u hurt me badly..but i learn it wisely..

ex~

我愿意当你一辈子的听众、一辈子的拥抱对象。。
suddenly i found this quote from my old notes~
yes..i promise this to myself..
i told u b4..
if u follow the wrong star, my love wil get u home..
is true..i'm always here for u..
but not the love on u..is jz a support.. =)

no fake pls~

sad~
when i facing other with the truth..
then i found that they are not telling the truth..
my heart is bleeding..
i duno the point they cheat..
i dun like the feeling of i'm in the light but u're in the dark...
i dun like.. i hate..
i duno wat r the truth on u..
but u know every single things about me..
maybe for me i feel that it's unfair..
but actually i jz wan u to face me with a true face..
i jz wan to understand u better..
please..dont lie..dont ignore..
when i say i'm, yes i'm..
jz tel me the truth and i know u'll feel the relax too..

if u played me for so long~
i'll never ever forgive u!

holiday~lazyy~

god~ wat holiday i having...
why am i wasting my time again and again?
i wont forgive myself..
i always say so..
but wat to do with not forgive..
the consquence is stil the same..
shit~
wat i had done..
haiz..
i always told myself i had done a good job..
maybe....a few questions~ a few words i read through~
oh god~ no man... how this can be??
wat happenned to me?
tel me please.....
i dont want to be a person who juz eat and sleep..
wat different btwn a pig and me??
even pig also walk around~shit~