Cried....again...why...

Feeling I'm so weak...but that kind of lack of energy....
But that kind ppl say as a bubble? Breaks when touch?
Hard to describe...but I know u get it as well...
The level or limit of my tears are low...
I cried out easily...is it means that I had kept it for too long?
Am I?
I wonder....
Dunno who to share it...
I'm seriously down down down...low low low....
Am I looked so easy to be bully?
Yes....
Am I looked like a child?
I tot i did changed to mature?
Am I looked pity enuf?
No...u never symphaty on me!!!
Am I innocent enuf?
I tried...

U...u.....u....mr razak....irate u..
I treat u with great manner, u giving me a corner to go....
Are u killing me?
I apologize for a manner meant, u think is a joke?!
I speake out the truth that u might meet it in ur future too....
U not qualified ok?!
Why am I able to scolding u bitch but pretend ok I front of u?
I'm not pretending but I can't show off these feeling...why....
I really felt I'm too easy to be cheated...
I know is a lie but I did symphaty for u...am I?
Felt hopeless to myself after this situation....
I had made my sister worries about me..
Tot I'm learning to be independent...why I'm not at all...
Am I really so stupid?
Am I really lack of so many knowledge?
Am I having a low eq?
Tel me please....
Why am I so weak to be....

I hope I wil be safe...
I hope he din duplicate my ic...
I hope he din act stupid job with my ic....
I hope I'm fine...
I hope my parents won't know about it....
I hope they stil feeling I'm great....
I hope I won't be worried by them...
I hope my dad not going to tell me go home and he wil work for me...
I hope I can earn myself some money...
I hope I can really life myself...
I hope I won't cry...
I hope I can do better....
But, I cried....
I know I had disappointed myself...
I'm sad of myself....
Honestly.......I hate my own...
I hate when I'm weak....
I hate when ppl started to bully me and I started to cry...
I hAte when I kind...
I hate, seriously..........
I'm hurted....
I wish to speak it out....
I wish to shout....
I had failed to find a place as this........

Boss

I felt sad..
This is the beginning...
Oh, nope..is ending of today...15of march......

Started with cheers, with happiness, with nice mood I had....
And it started....that's why I blip always...
Once u had happy for a long time, u wil pay it back...
U wil then sad for the same duration...seriously...it's karma...

I tot is a good ending....without boss around....
How come he came back at the last half hour...
And he asked me to do such normal routine work in these last minutes...
U know my phone rang..U act nothing?!
I have no ot to claim ehhh! And u hold me for half an hour...
Ur salary more than mine for big amount...
Ur allowance allowed u to have a place to stay...
Ur benefits make u to own a car....
And u wanted my half hour! Ok, fine....
You're boss, I shut up, right?
U never appreciate me...you're jz trying to choose the none from an egg....
Hey, please la, I dont voice out during working time....
But now is over...I told u that not written by me.. U can't blame me!
U insist to! Fine again.... U doesn't felt ur fault...
U r jz thinking that u wanna teach me..ok, I stood!
I try my best to forgive u in this thinking...bcoZ u r my boss too..............

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I wish I'm writing the days that I had over puchong...
I wish I'm writing the days I enjoying my first full time job...
I wish I'm finding here some sort of diary..
But I failed to do it all...
I dun have a space...
I means....I dun have a good laptop..I can't excess Internet...
The only way is to borrow...to wait...
And so I did...
In the midnight time....
I started to type...
For today.........