my dearest fren~

to all my dearest ji mui..
i never realised the feeling was that strong to me.
and i dont even able to control my feeling at that moment onwards...
28june2012~
the moment i am weird of disapperance of everyone.
i dont even get notice about it.
i thought maybe i aware on it at first.
but it end up with the story of this....
how many times am i going to convince u guys?
where i am staying is not really that far.
am i?
though i am not staying over Penang, not Seremban, not even over any sea....
just a little inform, at least i had been informed.
no, never.
i am jz been left out like this, jz bcoz of the word of Puchong.
okay~ thats alright~
maybe this had remind me the feeling of hurted.
the feeling of unable to be abandoned...
i am not angry, but seriously i am sad.
after i read the post, not even finish the last wording, i had dropped my tears~
no one know, even myself. it was an involuntary action. and that feeling was damn awkward!
wat the hell? i ask myself, are u alright?
and i think of another member of our gang----
i wonder, did she feel the same thing as me?
when she failed to attend or not even be invited by us?
why dont i cant feel the same things from her?
should i learn from her actually?
yes, i should.
from that moment onwards, i swear i will be stronger without them.
to prove that, i swear not to meet up with the gang and not even chat with them..
you will not understand why i act stubborn as this..
because the day without their chat was crazy and bored! i never know my life seriously is only them :(
and my dearest, please understand me, i am forced to be that far. because u will never know how silly was the house i had stayed over for 19years~
this is my dream to leave, but not expected i had allowed u guys to leave me too........