A simpe quote~

a quote that i heard more than 3times from the different person~

"i had never been seeing you for a long time"

what is the meaning behind these words?
from the three person that namely my friend..

they never wanted much from me, but just a simple talk will do...
honestly, i do enjoy the conversation..
but when it goes abit more deep inside, i walk a step behind..
yup, i'm the one who never walked out from the darkness..ever..
maybe this is the meant of not on the right time..

until the day i met him and i speak to him...
regret to say that he is not the one who telling me this quote..
or i should say that it's better not for him to give me the hope...
and it should end up like this.. --end--

miss you badly~

that was the day you give me a call..
that was the day i never think of u at all..
that was the day i missed him..very much...
and you were with him on that day..
"hello" when i answering ur phone call..
no doubt, i'm sad why you are the one to speak..
i know..i understand..
he will not be the one to call..
he will not be the one that miss on me..
he will not be the one who care about me anymore..

i wonder...
am i thought too much from the start?
am i put too much feeling to blind up my eyes?
am i open my heart to wide on you?
why u gave me such feeling from the start?
did you realised about it?
or it's just the normal way u did on anyone else?
there are too much question i wish to get the answer from you..
and i know it wont be a good ending...
but why are you treating me good in the first?
why are you disappear again after that?
i miss you like crazy whenever i think of it..
i saved every single message from you..
i read each of it everytime and guessing your feeling...

seriously, i never felt this before after him ='(